The time when we became so close. When we used to call each other funny names to make fun of one another. Argue about the smallest things because we don’t want us making the wrong decisions. And then after all the mistakes, we will celebrate every little positive things that happened thereafter. We will remember the days we talk non-stop till it gets midnight and the conversation soon turned dark and deeper. Where we share our deepest thoughts and secrets, and try to resolve and contemplate it together. We left a door as soon as we shared it but the key will remain with us to open. One day, we will remember the times of laughter like when we sang each other songs at the top of our lungs when we both know we can’t sing or the time when we tried to hide our laughter after getting scolded for doing something stupid we are well aware of. One day, we will remember crying because of our favorite movie or when we bawled our eyes out for not seeing each other for months. And yes, those were the days.
Now, it seems like we have forgotten about it. We can now go a day of not talking to each other. We can now live without sharing about our days which we used to do back then. Now, there are only times when something great happened and I wanted to share it with you but a month will pass by before we talk once again and my excitement to share my story had already died. Times when I see the little things in my life as the important things to tell you but you’re no longer there to listen everyday. Like when I finally learned how to bake or when I got my first piano lesson or best when I had an amazing day. Those were the stories worth telling and I still wish you are here with me to listen.
We truly forgot about it. The good days there once was. I am silently hoping that if that day ever comes, we can still fix it as it once was before because I really believe that we will remember. Maybe not now but one day, I know we will.
Stephanie Miles Caragay
Humanist Talk 